Prayer Beads and Scrupulosity

Poor Loquacious Loquat--always forgotten next to its little sister blog with all the poems on it. Fortunately, today I find myself thinking about Anglican prayer beads, so I have a non-poem-y blog to type up.

Ever heard of scrupulosity? It's a fun little thing we religious people have. Usually, it's a nasty case of MUST DO ALL THE THINGS. Then there's me (at least, probably): I get to be the lucky SOB with the disorder scrupulosity (a subset of OCD). Read up on it here. It sucks. I have to be careful not to go too overboard with my devotions. Of course, there's the danger I'll go too far the other way. When my scrupulosity is at its worst, I want to be St. Francis or St. Elizabeth of Hungary. But attempts to distance myself from religion for sanity's sake often results in me feeling ... inhuman. If I'm not admiring St. Elizabeth and St. Francis, I'm probably ignoring beggars and any number of poor people in this town. When you feel that your kindness is a big part of who you are, and you end up shunning that part ... well then.

Chris suggested at one point that I have a daily maximum of devotion time. So I held it to reading the Daily Office and 30-Day Psalter; when Lent arrived, I added this version of the Way of the Cross every Friday. But then I got this text from my mother last night ...
... and I realized I didn't actually say prayers. For anyone. (Although, in fairness, I did manage to say, "Rest in peace and rise in glory," for Stephen Hawking when I got 2,000 push notifications saying he'd died.) I appreciate having been raised Anglican because I cannot say an extemporaneous prayer to save my life, and I appreciate the Anglican rosary because I can dedicate my prayers and meditations to people and focus on the beads.

All this navel gazing to say that I have a new source for you.

I like this set. There are some good, unique prayers here. I have intentions of writing my own prayers for intercession at some point, but for now these are good. Will keep searching and linking to them on the Loquat. I think I'll change the name to "The Loquacious Loquat: It's Not All Just Dog Obituaries".


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