Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Failed

So I'm dropping out of college today.

I said something to Chris that stuck in my maw for a day, finally pushing me over the edge to not get an art degree. Basically I said that I no longer had the right frame of mind to be a student. And it's true--after nearly 8 years out of the game, my desire to start over as a freshman is so, so low. A 28-year-old freshman. Not the life for me.

So what to do? I can't just spend my life indoors doing nothing. I've decided to take the plunge and get certified as a nurses aide. After seeing my mom's relationship with her nurses while she was so sick, I felt a longing to be a nurse of some sort. I just thought I'd be an artist first and go to art school while I was still relatively young. Things aren't turning out that way, but I must say that I'm really not all that disappointed.

It may still be awhile before I can get things started: I may need the same immunizations that LVNs and RNs need, and since I never got Hepatitis B that'll take 6 months. Of course, if I don't need the shots I can start right away!

I better wrap this up. Chris has the kitten (Tuna) out in the living room and the dog is harassing her. It's up to me to save the day. ;)

Friday, January 20, 2012

In Which I Have a Crisis

I woke up Thursday morning and freaked out. I didn't go to my Design 1 studio class that morning because it was too stressful. End result? I don't know how to do the assignment that's due Tuesday. I screwed myself over.

After a day of thinking about dropping out of art school, I finally decided on dropping Design and sticking with Drawing and Art Appreciation. I'll take Design this summer so it's all I can focus on. I think this'll make life a little easier.

I've been out of the game too long to go more than part time right now. What a mess.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

First Day of Art School

"Oh, how awful. Someone's phone is going off in class. ... Oh crap, it's mine."

I think we can safely call that an inauspicious start to art school.


The desks are crazy. I need to go in early to my design class with my macro lens and have a field day.


This is the view inside my entirely-too-heavy bag. The adorable puppy pencil case has to be updated to a large tackle box filled with art crap, but I can still keep my note-taking pens  in there.


Here's my workstation from the bowels of the library. After an 8:00 AM class, I'm embarrassed to say that over the course of two hours there I read five pages of my design textbook ... and spent the rest of the time asleep. So much for getting some good studying done in between my classes.


Playing with a large aperture out in the sunshine. Note the blurry people resulting from the slow shutter speed.

It's so weird being back on campus. In many ways, this is the same university I went to 10 years ago, but being 10 years older makes it quite a bit different too. Ah well. Drawing studio and Design lecture tomorrow!

Monday, January 2, 2012

Light Photos (not to be confused with light paintings)

I recently stumbled across a quote that's wormed its way into my head and won't leave:

If you stop photographing things, and start to photograph light, you will amaze yourself.
- Steve Coleman
I've meant to dedicate a whole roll of film to this quote (preferably black and white, don't you think?), but in the meantime I've been experimenting with Bishop Nikon, my Nikon D90. (My Orthodox friends will get the joke.) Over Christmas I tried photographing light--or the absence of light--just to get a feel for it. I don't know if I'm doing it right, but I am sort of enjoying the outcome. These photos just have a different feel to them. I put them all in sepia so the focus is on light and shadow instead of color.

One of my grandmother's crocheted snowflakes casting a shadow on the wall. 

I like the way crystal catches light. I don't like the way it reflects my camera's big schnozz dead-center. 

This is Chris's favorite. He likes all the lines of light and shadow the ramada casts in winter. 

This one is my favorite. It's got a nice simplicity to it.

This is the most photogenic brass cat you'll ever see. My brother and sister-in-law got it for my mom in New Orleans. Every picture I take of it looks awesome, so I think it's the cat and not me. Focus not just on the play of light and shadow on the cat, but also on how the light brings out the grain on the door. It's only noticeable in sepia. 
There should be more with time, but that's what I have for now.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Is 2012 better yet?

Well, considering I'm up at 3:40 in the morning with my brain working at 200mph ... no.

I wish I could call my mommy right now, but it's too dang early.

The great news is that it's 2012, and I have not yet spent any money! :D