Prayer Beads and Scrupulosity

Poor Loquacious Loquat--always forgotten next to its little sister blog with all the poems on it. Fortunately, today I find myself thinking about Anglican prayer beads, so I have a non-poem-y blog to type up.

Ever heard of scrupulosity? It's a fun little thing we religious people have. Usually, it's a nasty case of MUST DO ALL THE THINGS. Then there's me (at least, probably): I get to be the lucky SOB with the disorder scrupulosity (a subset of OCD). Read up on it here. It sucks. I have to be careful not to go too overboard with my devotions. Of course, there's the danger I'll go too far the other way. When my scrupulosity is at its worst, I want to be St. Francis or St. Elizabeth of Hungary. But attempts to distance myself from religion for sanity's sake often results in me feeling ... inhuman. If I'm not admiring St. Elizabeth and St. Francis, I'm probably ignoring beggars and any number of poor people in this town. When you feel that your kindness is…

Obituary for Hamilton Q. Dog

Hamilton Q. Dog, affectionately referred to as "Hammy", was put down after being incapacitated by a stroke on February 1, 2018. He is survived by his human parents, Chris and Chandler; his kitty, Tuna; two significantly more frightening cats, Owl and Estelle; and his brother-from-another-mother, Bors. He was definitely of dachshund heritage; Chandler and Chris argue over how much pit bull was in him.

Hammy arrived on the scene eight years ago in most striking fashion: Chris, who was working at a prison in the middle of the West Texas desert, met him in the parking lot and patted him on the head. Hammy proceeded to follow Chris and jump in the car when he opened the door. With that, Chris and Chandler had a second dog. The next day, Chris overheard guards talking about how they had planned to shoot "that little black and tan dog" because "he wouldn't survive out here anyway." And the only gun available was a sniper. Modern sensibilities concerning pet…

Merry Christmas!


Healing Tuesday

On Tuesdays, I pray for healing for my dad. (It's here that I remind him that healing and curing are not the same thing, Mr. Grumpy-Pants.) It's the only day I really designate for something. Chris suggested that I switch from the Catholic rosary to the Anglican rosary, however, because sometimes I get a touch obsessed and want to convert to Catholicism ... and Chris has had it with switching religions. Honestly, after the last one turned into a fertility cult, I'm reluctant to leave the hospitable, open arms of the Episcopal Church ever again, too. Unfortunately, switching rosaries left me without a set of prayers to use. I thought I'd share what I found when I went searching:

Two sets from Bead One, Pray Too
A lovely PDF!
From the Franciscans
If you prefer your rosary Catholic, there are several healing-themed mysteries in this lovely book
There's also this (note that it's about trauma and not physical/mental illness)

Hmm. I was hoping there'd be more. Feel …

The Spiritual Motherhood Rosary

Can I admit that I don't quite know how to feel about this thing I made shortly after leaving Orthodoxy? I feel like I've struggled my whole adult life with not being able to have kids, and yet there was something relieving in letting go of that hope. The writer of some of this rosary, Alice von Hildebrand, was a devout Catholic but married too late in life to have children. She said that people such as I should strive for spiritual motherhood in lieu of actual motherhood (and thus, this set of prayers was born). Now, however, I don't feel like this is my life's work. But I love my nieces and my sponsored children, and I'm always thrilled when someone chooses to become a foster parent because this country desperately needs foster parents who aren't in it just for the money. I'm also aware of my responsibilities to these children in my life. I'm just not sure I want to call it "motherhood".

My biases about my own creation aside, it occurs to me…

Advent/"O Antiphon" Anglican Rosary

The "O Antiphons" (so called because they all begin with "O") are said during morning prayer the week from December 17th to the 23rd, neatly sandwiching the Magnificat. Much like the St. Patrick's Breastplate rosary (which you can find and enjoy here), each week bead is different thing rather than being totally repetitive. What luck that there are seven O Antiphons, amiright? Say this original set of prayers on a purple/blue and pink Anglican rosary for extra festive joy.

Just a quick note on the Resurrection Bead: In my early twenties, I made tons of Anglican rosaries. Then I went to the Orthodox Church for about ten years, and when I emerged on the other side this baffling bead had been added between the invitatory and first cruciform beads. I'm not 100% sure how to use it, and you won't see it on all Anglican rosaries. If you have it, I've included it; if not, whatever.

CROSS: In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.


My Latest Idea

I bounce around from hobbies. I've had enough of writing poetry for now; I'm ambivalent about playing music, although it would be nice if I wasn't because I said I'd play on Christmas Day; and I think I'm about to get back into Anglican/Episcopal rosary/prayer beads making. With that comes piecing together things to say on those rosaries. So I'm starting a new label on the Loquat and making it a resource for finding rosary prayers both original and from the far-flung corners of the web. Neato, huh?

I thought I'd kick things off with the only one I have memorized--my go-to. I love Julian of Norwich and read a chapter of her Revelations of Divine Love every morning. I have several translations and am hoping for more this happy Christmas. Anyway, here's a Julian-themed Anglican rosary for your enjoyment and prayerfulness.